New Shoes?

Well I bought some new runnin' shoes. I was told my other ones were "breaking down" I'm guessing its because of all the miles I had but on them....LOL. So I ran last night, a quick mile....and it felt HORRIBLE.....! I was by myself, with no one encouraging me. Which scares me a little. Do I always need someone there encouraging me? Will I stop this when the honeymoon stage goes away? It even felt different...my calves WERE killin' me....so bad that I was almost in a full limp-mode! It was super windy and when you go as slow as me it almost knocked me over. I kept saying to myself.... "Jesus did way more then this to get to his death...so that He could die for my sins" I know I know that may sound morbid to some of you, but really I am running a MILE and then going to dinner. Can I really NOT DO THIS FOR HIM....! I get frustrated. I kept running. Then I stopped to go to the bathroom. LIKE in an actual restroom.....(not all parks have those) this was the first time I actually saw the word REST...in restroom....I had to pee...BUT wow I could also REST IN HERE...no one was outside waiting for me. I rested. I rested too much. Was this the "old me"?... I thought she was gone....nope just chillin'! See, the old me is too lazy to make herself seen a whole lot....but she comes right when I am weak. She tells me it's ok to REST no one is around....no one even noticed you left the running trail. I have to remember that I am never alone.....I have to listen very carefully to Jesus...He is always in my ear encouraging me. For the first time in 3 weeks I did not like this transformation. It scares me to feel that way. I blamed it on my new shoes....but really it's not the shoes at all. It's a gentle reminder from my sweet DaddyGod...that any time you need earthly people more then Him...he will remind you in the only way he knows you will listen. Tonight I run again, and tonight it will feel right.