It happens. They want to do stuff all by themselves.
I love my mom and know she did the best she could-I truly believe that.
I do believe she stopped raising me at the age of 17. I could do all things by myself. She didn't need to do anything else. She was a single Mom, now she could have the freedom we all lose the minute we have a child. She could stay at work late and not have to worry about picking me up from various places.She could hand me a $20 and know that she did her part.
I think this is why I am paralyzed when I think of Kyleigh doing life without me in the driver's seat. (literally)
I have had the pleasure of driving her everywhere.
The car ride became something more than just a ride somewhere.
Conversations started:
"Mom-where do homeless people walk? I mean they have nowhere to go...why do they walk fast?" Age 8
"Mom-I just counted 11 brown trucks and only 3 of them were light brown" Age 5
"Mom-why would some one sing about a tootsie roll?" Age 9
"Mom-can we have Cici's pizza?" Age 9
"Hey Mom-I need to tell you something and you are going to be so sad with me.....Mom-I said a cuss word in my head today at lunch." Age 10
"Mom-What do other people do on Sundays I cant believe we used to not go to church, I love it!" Age 10
"Mom-can you turn the radio up?" Age 11
"Mom----------never mind." Age 12
"Mom I seriously cannot believe you were right about that guy. How do you know stuff like that?" Age 13
"Mom I think it's neat how Jesus has us BOTH single at the same time so we can relate to each other better-easier..." Age 14
"Mom- is it weird that I have my permit?" Age 15
"Mom-really....do I drive good....?" Age 15
"Mom-I cant believe you think Bruno Mars is sexy..." Age 15
"Mom-I told my friend we could go eat and stuff tomorrow like without you...just me and her........I mean you can come if you want....." Age 16
"Mom this is going to be weird. I'm gonna miss you in the morning...." Age 16
Conversations will continue. Just in different places.
I had to learn when I first become a Christian-YOU DON'T JUST TALK TO JESUS AT THE CHURCH.
I will not stop raising Kyleigh. I will meet her where she is.
I will ask Jesus, "How do you do it? How do you continue to raise me even though I am 38? How do you meet me where I am? Teach me O'Lord."
He is the parent and I am the babysitter.
