You got LAID OFF-why the smile?

I wake up and it's Monday....I have no job to go to and I am more awake then ever. I am more focused, I even have a pep in my step I cannot explain.
It's gotta be a "God thing". Don't get me wrong-I am scared and nervous, but for some beautiful reason I am calm.
Like majority of Americans I am a 'pay check to pay check' kind of gal, not proud of it...but its true. How scary-huh? Yes, but again I have to learn from this. As most of you know God will propose a test, now he is not the type to just slam the test on the desk and leave you in a room by yourself with a #2 pencil...and IF that pencil breaks "TUFF", He is a merciful God.
I find it joyful to be tested by Him. Now don't get me wrong I have broke many many pencils and have asked if I could just maybe start the whole test over again, and I have even cried thinking I would get that hall pass to the nurse so I could lay down with the HUGE paper towel they call a blanket.

"Mom-are you going to OK-why are you smiling? It's because you get to nap all day huh?"
I am smiling because I have a clean canvas, I get to listen to God with no one around, I get to read His word and wait for my instructions. I am the lucky one. I know people who really never get tested they never allow themselves to feel the anxiety of being tested. They are scared, and so am I but feeling the stress of a test is healthy to me. With Jesus as my professor how can I fail. OH...I can fail, but He doesn't ask me to leave the room. He sits down with me.
We all have had that teacher that just sat next to you, she was either watching you to make sure you weren't writing notes or she was sitting just in case you needed her. Jesus is sitting right next to me, waiting for me to look up from the test and ask for help.

No one knows, unless you were in theatre but SO much goes on behind the scenes and then the curtain opens. Everything runs smoothly. The show is entertaining and fulfilling. Sometimes the show does not start ON TIME, sometimes the lighting is 'off', sometimes you forget your lines. But to the audience it looks perfect and smooth....and they can't wait to clap at the end to show their appreciation.

The curtain is about to open, and I have to take a deep breathe, and be prepared to break a leg.